
I got lost in this ol’ world and forgot who I am….
Seriously. I have no idea who I am now a days. Im miserable. I used to be creative. Now… i have so many ideas and I have to ignore them because the guy Im with says Im wasting my time and making a mess. So I cant tap into my super creative bone. ;/ It sucks and im trying not to think too much about it. But there has only been one person to ever make me do things to be creative…like he brought me my first camera and told me to go out and take photos… he pushed me to do what I loved. And I guess that’s why I miss him in my life. He has been the only one to ever make me push myself to be better. To be more creative….. I miss photography and creating things. This isn’t me. Work. Home. Work. Im a work. Home to create. Go out take photos. Listen to music. Discover new bands. Create. Blog. Write. Print photos. Have deep conversations…. now. I feel dead inside. Like a zombie. With no creativity. Maybe I’m being over dramatic. Or maybe Im realizing what I need in my life to be fully happy.